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(( I apologise for my inactivity, I was unexpectedly picked up by a friend and didn't have access to the internet for week. n__n; ))

I no longer work at the library... Instead I found a job as a court page! I'm really excited to start working!

But more importantly I -- I think I remembered something. About before I came here. It was sooo cool, like a flashback in a television show or something. I just hope it wasn't a dream. Although somehow I'm positive that this memory is true. Intuition, I guess.

I was on a balcony of a hotel room, along with several other men. They were part of a company -- Yotsuba. Really sharp, important heads of the company. And Misa was there two, she was right, we must have known each other. The other men were intoxicated, and I was acting drunk, saying that I could balance across the ledge, and Misa was cheering me on. And then I... I fell off. But it was all planned, and a few floors down some of my co-workers caught me and brought me back into the building. It was because I had to fake my death... But I can't remember why. And there was a man in the room that I went into -- Soichiro Yagami. I remember that we we were very close... He was like a father to me and I really looked up to him. He helped me a lot and asked me to be in this... group. It was an investigation team... But... I can't remember what or who we wre investigating. That's all that I can remember.

I guess I just feel... Hopeful now. This is going to be an interesting year, ne? 

Which reminds me, HAPPY NEW YEAR!  ♪☆彡(ﾉﾟ▽ﾟ)ﾉ☆彡ﾍ(ﾟ▽ﾟﾍ)☆彡(ﾉﾟ▽ﾟ)ﾉ☆彡♪

[[...And there goes his 3% memory gain. There's a little something else but Matsuda hasn't realized he remembered it yet. c: ]]

Ahhhhh I'm so sorry that I didn't make it to the Christmas party!! I was going to go but then I had a coughing fit... And then I was just going to take a short nap but ended up falling to sleep... I think I'm over my cold now, though. I guess I just needed more rest.  n___n;;; 

 I've started working at the library... It's nice but it seems like not very many people use it. I did also manage to find a book on gun use -- I tried to read some of it a few days ago but I was too sick. Which reminds me, thanks Gunter for helping me when I was sick. (n_n ) I think I'm almost completely better now~

Oh! This Christmas party sounds like a lot of fun, I hope a lot of people end up going. (And I'm sure Honey will like that huge cake~ it sounds really delicious) Maybe I can meet more people that I haven't seen yet... Although I don't know if I'll go with anyone... 

Merry (almost) Christmas, everyone~! (ﾉﾟ▽ﾟ)ﾉ♪

 I think I got sick from being outside in the snow yesterday... My forehead's a bit warm and I've been sneezing all morning. It's nothing too serious, though~ And it was worth it to have the snowfight with Gunter and Naruto, even though Gunter and I lost.

I've been thinking that... Maybe I'm not completely the person that I thought I was when I woke up. Misa said that she knows I was a policeman... Which would explain certain things that I was wondering about. And then there's other things that I thought, but maybe was wrong about... Um... My head hurts, I think I'm going to rest now. (u_u;; )

I found my room (Number 303 -- a nice number and easy to remember!) , but it seems rather empty and I haven't seen my roommate at all. I hope "Touma" isn't avoiding me, although by the looks of it he hasn't spent much time in this room at all. Maybe he's on a trip?

These past few days I have not been able to sleep well. When I lie in bed all I can think about is how blank my memories are. It's so... Distressing. On the plus side, I have been able to explore around the town. It's so pretty! There are also lots of stores... I think pretty soon I'll have to get a job -- I saw some books that looked interesting. I really want to learn as much as I can!

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Yesterday when I returned from my walk around Memento Eden, I found something underneath my jacket that I hadn't noticed before. A holster -- with a loaded gun in it. Why would I have that!? And how did I not notice it... I've been so stressed since I got here... Somehow I feel like I was not a bad person, but... Maybe I am just trying to comfort myself. I don't want to hurt anyone... Or have people here think I'm a dangerous person...

I decided to hide it in a desk drawer that was near my bed... There was a key on the table that locked it, and I've decided to keep it with me at all times.

Now that I think about it though, I must have known how to fire guns... That's kind of... Cool. (n_n;; )

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I almost forgot~ I noticed that there was a theater across the water from the housing. I wonder if they have plays often? I really want to see one!

Memento Eden. That's the name of this place. I still haven't seen much of it outside this building, but at least now I know I'm not dead or something. However, I feel like I'm walking around in a daze. There are still a lot of strange things here, and I haven't really checked anything out yet. I'm a bit nervous that I'm going to do so something wrong and embarrass myself~ *nervous laugh*

Anyway, I saw a layout of the apartment building that said my roomate was name "Touma". I hope I can get along with this Touma person. I'm nervous about meeting them, what if they don't like me or I make a bad impression?

...And I hope they're not one of those talking-animals Mizuki mentioned. (q_q \\\)


Oh! I almost forgot, thank you everyone who anwered my questions. If there's anything I can do for you, please tell me!

 


...Maybe I'll look around for something to eat, my stomach is feeling almost as empty as my head.

Today started out so strangely… I woke up in a room that was not my own – or at least, I don’t remember it being my own. My head was so empty – honestly it still is… I sat up from the bed I had been laying in and looked around the bare room. There was nothing I recognized. Is this amnesia? I thought at first I was dead… But no, as I stepped off of the bed I could feel the coldness of the floor. I tried to poke the finger of my right hand through my left palm – solid. My head was killing me. Maybe I had been hospitalized. Maybe I was a famous politician, lawyer, turncoat gangster! But as I stood there debating whether or not to open the door, I knew I was none of these things. Am I being punished for something? I wracked my brains for at least an hour.

Matsuda.

My name.

Everything else is just... Blank.

What the heck is going on here? There has to be someone here… Someone with answers.
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               
Help! (・_・、)